I admit it: after going full-steam ahead on my new manuscript all summer, when September hit I got STUCK. Like, maybe 500 words in 3 months kind of stuck. NOT good. I mean, it would suck for a writer at any time, but when you’ve actually published your first book, you don’t want to become one of those writers who only ever publishes one book and then is never heard from again. The goal here is to actually have some kind of “oeuvre” eventually. (Did I mention I speak French? Very badly, but every once in a while I’ll throw in a word just to sound important.)
It’s been somewhat traumatizing to look at that file every day, and to not be able to think of a single word to add to it. I can blame Twitter and Facebook all I want (and my social media addiction really doesn’t help) but the truth was that if I really had something to say it would’ve won out over the internet. I think.
That being said, I’ve had a goal in mind of having What Lies Behind ready to be published sometime in the spring. Since I’m not yet done the first draft, that might be a lofty goal, but I don’t like not meeting goals. Yesterday, for the first time in a long time, I actually sat down and wrote a bit. To my surprise, it went fairly quickly, so I set myself a mini-goal for the day. At 11pm, I still hadn’t met it, but I decided to give it a try, at least. I ended up not going to bed until 12:30, but in the end, I did it, and it felt good. I figure that if I can keep going at this pace, spring – albeit probably LATE spring – is still doable. It’s usually the first draft that takes me forever. I’m one of those writers who agonizes over the first draft to the point that it’s relatively polished before I even start doing the second. Of course, forcing myself to get out of this slump may make for a slightly strange section until I get back into my groove, but even still: I can do this.
I don’t really make New Year’s resolutions, so this isn’t a resolution, but still, I hope you’ll hold me to this goal of mine. Ask me once in a while how the book is coming. Guilt is a wonderful motivator, I find (just ask my kids!)
And while we’re on the topic of New Year’s, I want to thank all of you for making this one of the most exciting times in my life. Idol Hands may not be at the top of the bestsellers’ list, but the fact that people are reading it, and liking it, means so very much to me. It’s all well and good to write a book, but it no one reads it… well, let’s just say I’d prefer it if someone did. If you did read it, and you liked it, please let other people know. If someone is looking for a book recommendation, I’d love it if you’d mention Idol Hands to them.
Happy New Year to all of you, and may you have a 2012 full of love and fulfillment!